tybee island birds, originally uploaded by celisa.

“Develop an interest in life as you see it; in people, things, literature, music–the world is so rich, simply throbbing with rich treasures, beautiful souls, and interesting people. Forget yourself.”
~Henry Miller

sometimes thinking about myself gets old. perhaps those that are married and have kids, especially earlier on in their lives, don’t get to experience this (instead they wish for more time for themselves). i have told friends before…more in this past year…that living just for yourself grows tiresome. the place i lived last year, and the place i live now, is surrounded by families; kids going off to school, dads cutting lawns, moms cooking dinners, kids running around outside, etc etc. it appears tedious yet safe and warm all at once. there is a safety there. this knowing of who you will come home to. what you will do. going to the grocery store to buy meals that provide nourishment for loved ones that share your everyday life with you.

anyway, i can look to my friends, my family, my creativity, for company…but yet it’s not the same. as days have gone by, i long for the company and chaos of a ‘family’ to experience life with. it doesn’t have to come in the form of what most people think it does…a husband, kids, pets. it’s more about the dynamic of folks to share your everyday moments with. friends getting together for potlucks, celebrating birthdays, playing music on a front porch with folks, being involved more deeply in the lives around you. it’s about sharing. i was never very good at that growing up. but i am to try harder now.