The Edge of the World, originally uploaded by m.hadding.

I think for the longest time I did what I thought I was supposed to do, instead of what i actually really wanted to do….i ignored those urges to let loose and be spontaneous. A big part of it was I was fearful of how it would make me appear….would it make me look stupid? inexperienced? naive? And so after years of ignoring my hidden desires, i started to break free of those restraints. i find myself back feeling like i did as a child, except this time i am paying attention and listening to what that little girl inside of me wants. i give into her whims of saying silly things, jumping in the lake even if i’m fully dressed, splashing in puddles even though it will get me dirty, exploring all of my creative whims, doing things even though i might not be good at it, but just for the sheer experience of something new…or just for the experience of doing it because i can. I am under no obligation to be a certain way. i am me… with all of my faults, weaknesses, strengths, blessings, issues, silliness, fear, bad skin, great hair, clumsiness, etc etc etc…..
so i might as well jump in and let the chips fall where they may.