Dance anyway…
There is a bit of insanity in dancing that does everybody a great deal of good. ~Edwin Denby
We’re fools whether we dance or not, so we might as well dance. ~Japanese Proverb
This is my dance button ring that i made the other day. I think my progression in life and learning can be defined by how i have danced or not danced throughout the years. In my earlier years i only danced in the confines of my room, unknown to my parents or brother. i danced wildly, jumping and flailing around, singing as loudly as i could, laughing, feeling complete abandon. and then came parties, music shows in later years and i did not dance…i was mortified if anyone asked me. later on, i would sit in my chair and slightly move my shoulders and upper body with the music. years go by and i’m around 23 or 24 and i begin to dance with a little help with my friends jose, jack, and captain morgan….things begin to loosen up and the the nuts and bolts of my body are seeing new life. i move awkwardly, but i move.
and then now….turning 30, and i dance like no one is watching. i dance to music, i dance to no music. i feel the pulsating of the beats in me….i dance to my heartbeat….i dance to love…i dance to life. i dance because i’m alive. i dance because i can.
Faith
Faith is not being sure where you’re going but going anyway.
~Frederick Buechner
I am having a HUGe sale at my etsy shop. Earrings are $6.50 and up. I have to take the car to the shop, bills, etc. I’m also ready to clear out some earrings to get ready for the fall season stuff! 
http://www.celisa.etsy.com
New Perspective
Sunset Breeze, originally uploaded by Tirau Dan.
Clouds come floating into my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm, but to add color to my sunset sky. ~Rabindranath Tagore
No words today. Just thoughts in my head that can’t be expressed. I came across this quote and it seemed appropriate.
It is what it is…
“How to be happy when you are miserable. Plant Japanese poppies with cornflowers and mignonette, and bed out the petunias among the sweet-peas so that they shall scent each other. See the sweet-peas coming up.
Drink very good tea out of a thin Worcester cup of a colour between apricot and pink…”
~Rumer Godden
I have always been one for simple pleasures. Even when i’m stressed or upset, I can find delight in a good meal, a cool or warm breeze, pretty flowers, a good glass of sweet tea, etc.
It’s in my nature to have anxiety….but it’s also in my nature to experience excitement in the little things. I try my best to laugh as much as I can, be as creative as I can, and be aware of it all…the good and the bad…the lessons to be learned in both the good and the bad days. With my ‘milestone’ birthday coming up, I’m even more aware of what kind of life I want to live….how I want to be ready and say ‘God take me’ when life choose it’s time for me to go. I realize that there is so much more to experience….but for me if i can say i did pursue my dreams of being creative for a living, and i brought as much of that to my life as possible then i will be okay no matter when my day comes. it’s about the quality, not quantity of life.
Hippies Use Backdoor
Hippies Use Backdoor, originally uploaded by celisa.
“Nonconformity, Holy Disobedience, becomes a virture and indeed a necessary and indispensable measure of spiritual self-preservation, in a day when the impulse to conform, to acquiesce, to go along, is the instrument which is used to subject men to totalitarian rule and involved them in permanent war.”
~A.J. Muste
I am feeling free these days. calm. wondering why i ever thought so much about what others thought. it has liberated me. unchained me from conforming to any idea of what others might think is the right way. the creating is coming in full force now.
home grown
home grown, originally uploaded by celisa.
“Whoever could make two ears of corn, or two blades of grass to grow upon a spot of ground where only one grew before, would deserve better of mankind, and do more essential service to his country, than the whole race of politicians put together.”
~Jonathan Swift, Gulliver’s Travels
For me, moving into this new house with a bare yard is the equivalent of a person who has always worn a watch their whole lives and who one day forgets to put it on and spends the rest of the day feeling a bit lost and naked. So I am going to start new seeds, buy new flowers, and get my hands dirty this week. My hands are aching to feel the earth.
By the way…
This is my horoscope for this week from Free Will Astrology . How appropriate for my cleaning up phase and setting myself free! I just came across it and had to add a post note for the previous entry.
“I saw the angel in the marble and carved until I set him free,” said the sculptor Michelangelo about a statue he made. Let that approach be your guide in the coming weeks, Leo. Proceed according to the hypothesis that the beautiful thing you want to create is embedded in stuff that’s hiding its true nature, and your job is simply to liberate it from what’s extraneous.
simplify
I am cleaning out my clothes, art room, kitchen, everywhere….selling or getting rid of it all. I am done with ’stuff’. It takes over your life, leaving you with no room to play or grow. I have loaded my car twice now, and will probably go another time to unload all of this stuff at my friend’s house for the yard sale tomorrow. The more I put in yard sale boxes, the more i want to get rid of.
It’s liberating, but also a scary feeling to acknowledge and give into the notion that we are not owned by our things…they don’t define who we are. How many of us could live in a bare house with only the bare necessities of what we need? no unnecessary clothes, accessories, furniture, books, games, movies, etc.
I think i would be okay with most of it….but i sure do love my fun accessories…i basically wear tank tops and jeans/shorts everyday with flip flops, so i live for the earrings, bags, jewelry that spice it up.
It will be interesting to come home tomorrow with my house cleaned out. Right now i’m torn with getting rid of some of my kitchenware….colorful plates, bowls, cups, mugs….but the truth is i dont’ need it. I am in part doing this ‘cleaning house’ thing for extra money, to simplify, but also as a test for myself. How will i feel without all this ’stuff’ to define me?
“It is preoccupation with possession, more than anything else, that prevents men from living freely and nobly.” ~Bertrand Russell
A Spirited Woman
A Spirited Woman Dangle Earrings, originally uploaded by celisa.
“There is in every true woman’s heart a spark of heavenly fire, which lies dormant in the broad daylight of prosperity, but which kindles up and beams and blazes in the dark hour of adversity” ~Washington Irving
I have been thinking about all the women in my life….how most of them are already married or are getting married, had/having kids, in long relationships….and I am here, single, unattached, living out my whims of being creative, doing what i want to when i want to do it, unobligated to do anything i don’t want to do. It’s interesting that for the first time in my life I don’t have single girl friends to just call up and go have a drink, or take a spontaneous road trip, etc. I find myself growing stronger within myself with less people to distract me. I talk less, and contemplate more. I figure things out more for myself rather than talking it out with a close friend.
Now i know that there is nothing like having girl friends to share your life with….i do miss the giggling, and ridiculousness that my life always used to be. but i am surprised to find that the strength i once got from my friends, was in me the whole time.
